yamaonna

i lead such a sinful life.  sigh…  but lets not dwell on that.

well, speaking of faults – materialism…  i just bought an iPod.  his name is bob

I know it probably sounds like all I’ve been doing lately is shopping, and well, its true…  but its also justified.  The fact is i am going away for 3/4 months, I need to buy clothes, make-up etc.  I’ve needed to buy new clothes for about 2 years, its just I’ve never really done a big buy at one time.  and make-up, well, everything always runs out at once…  murphys law or something.

As for the other things…  I have actually been thinking on buying an iPod for a little, and going to japan again made me decide to buy it becuase how else am I going to transport my music collection? and I know what it’s like to live with out music you understand and can sing along to.  it just ended up happening earlier than I expected.  perfume, well, thats part of my one year plan.  I’ll talk about that another time…

on to other kinda related matters – Monday I did a fast.  and no, not to get thin, it was a ‘religious fast’ thank you very much.  its one of my aims for this year, to do a 21 day fast.  I went to a service earlier this year and the topic was fasting, and how by prayer and fasting you can break the hold of things in your life.  and I need breaking.

I have to admit that I have a really really bad addiction to reading fanfiction.  its not bad to read, but when i spend a quarter to a third of a day reading it, its rather distructive.  And try as I might, i have not been able to give it up.  So i decided that that would be my focus for my fast.  And I am pleased to say that I think its been successful.  Mainly because after working all day, looking at really really yummy food, and on top of that other temptations being shoved into my face, and having to say no – to food, everything else seemed to be insignificant.  resisting something that you actually need to live made me realise it isnt that hard to say no to something that really, you dont need.

I’m very happy about that.  very.